It's all about me!


It's all about me!

[ Thursday, July 21, 2005 ]

 

THe new site is up. From now on expect only stuff there....

This will be closed down..... ivan.unixdaemons.com/blog/

Peace,
Ivan

Ivansky [ 8:51 AM Comments () ]

[ Tuesday, July 19, 2005 ]

 

(сега бях на едно напушване)
Хееей Българи.
Елате и се съберете – Пък и започнете,
Да свитире на вашите гайди,
И чуй те мой-те думи

Не можем ли да пишем, на Кирилица ей така.
Свободно както аз сега
Не можем нйи
Се мъчъм с latinicata eto tuy

Zatowa razberete me. Kaka z wizdam
Klawiaturata koiato izpolzvam
FOneti4nata oswen za 6est I mojebi \{}
Daje i kodowite dumi si imat svoite mesta.

Neka standardizirame klaviatura
Za da ima komunikacia konkretna
Wsiaka duma da se opishe
I da centralizirame bylgarskia pravopis

W formata koiato toj syshtestvuvaLL
Zashtoto mamkamu detsa – shte se zagubi ei taka
I sigurno sled malko shte ostanem durjava bez
Svoi glas – raztulen ot evropeiskiat saiuz

Neka bude tova nash proekt. Ot vas tova e
Hek… neznam be dali e mnogo roabota
No znam che towa e dobyr plan.
Da napravim edna televisonna kampania
(ot niakade kinti… mojebi donacii ili BNT)
Za da napravime novini I da standardizirame
Bylgarskiqt ezik v ASCII ekdpresii{{}}

I togava kogato nashta naciq se raztuli
Sled mnogo hiledi godini
Zashtoto nie sme kato gyrcite starinni
Oceleli v centara balkanski
Za da znaem vsichki tuk
Che nai dobriat shum e stadintseto moe
Ovchitsi as da vodya nagore po baira
Eh kakyv Rodopski Kyt

Да определено за поезия не става...
Но за ежедневна конверсация ще бъде
Много важно.

За това трябва да баправим някакъв официален ОН-ЛАЙН гласуване)
И да се опазиме от хакерите...

Публика – това е крайат

Да бъдем Дебиан – Свщенй и да спасим света
Ха ха ха... Публика – Още ли сте тук?
Да не би да се помислихте в някой театър.
Не знам какви ги бращолевя. Направо като че ли от дявола отвлечен.
Дяволът на Джойнта.
Помогнете моля – и не дейте и вие дърпа от бонг-а.

Fuck that shit I’m high!

angel_n_p BadOldMan bobihot dragonkiller echo isavov KaHa6uc mabelndlovu mythus Palq4o
( /КРАЙ сега бях на едно напушване)

Ivansky [ 8:47 AM Comments () ]

[ Friday, July 15, 2005 ]

 

Morality
The room smells like weed very strongly. New batch.
I just had the most fucked up exprience. This guy had the 1 year old girls over at the house. And I am talking to them and I know how young they are. And my gut reaction is to think wrong of this. And then I question the feeling (through rebellious reasoning). But the feeling is still there: THIS IS WRONG. So this is it. I have called my own bluff. Young chicks are not the best. And morality is always there.

It is a fucked up limit. Younger IS better but how young.

The other thing I realized is that the main reason I was so hurt over the recent events is because her chosing some other guy meant that I am no good. Or less good. In any case some sort of attack on my ego. So really I am hurt because of my own selfishness and how I wish to be thought of as.

I am listening to some Portishead. Rather I should say I am watching it because it happens to be MTV music clips of their songs. Well not mtv but general recordings of the band some live. I am discovering that the lead singer is kind of hot. See for yourselves.

At work I have done nothing. Well not absolutely nothing because I managed to make a research on the recent PC harware scene and have come-up with the ultimate PC of the near future (for my budget). [Case PowerSupply(150$) MBoard Chip] I think with 1000$ I can set up something very very decent starting from those parts.

Now I have pass out because I am supposed to be up sligtly earlier than usual tomorrow.
Peace out to all of y'all.

Ivansky [ 10:12 AM Comments () ]

[ Tuesday, July 12, 2005 ]

 

Useless Day at work. I really don't know what to do anymore. It is boring and pointless. I still can't do absolutely anything though because there are people behind my back. I write e-mails and just try to pass time as best as I humanly can. It is still tough to actually do nothing all day long. Not enjoying it.
I came back and S' (the set of three irish girls in local nomenclature), Rockson and I went for a picnic. They had some sort of pasta and I had sandwiches and a few bottles of wine went around. We were on this little hill next to the museum of Anthropology with the ocean by one side and Indian totem poles on the other side. For a little while there I actually genuinly enjoyed myself. None of the girls are particularly hot and I don't have any apirations to get into their pants so I was not trying to impress anyone. It was a new feeling - I could just sit and enjoy the silences. Just chillin. It was good until we ran out of wine. I think it makes sense that I should have female friends and not think about fuckin them all the time... now of course the company of beautiful ladies is always more enjoyable but so long as they are not mingaz then it is good times all the way.
I also notices how the cool outdoors fun immediately fires the alcohol and weed desire neurones. As if to have fun you have to be stoned or drunk. What the fuck has become of me?
Oh and I am going to be in MTL for August 1st to 5th as part of the 5th Canadian Summer School of Quantum Information.

Ivansky [ 9:49 AM Comments () ]

[ Friday, July 08, 2005 ]

 

Cryptonomicon
I will try to immitate Igor here and tell y'all about this book that I finished last night. It is good and recommendable. Especally if you know wat perl is or have some knowledge of math. The book is a best seller by design: it is targeted eactly towards the geek overlords that are o-so-numerous nowadays. The WW2 bits of the story are quite interesting too and read a little like a history book.
The author has an interesting direct style that captivates but sometimes he goes on these long digressins about mungane nonsense that are just utter garbadge.
Some moments are very thought provoking and even philosophical. Recommended overall but be prepared to read through some circumstancial filler here and there...

Ivansky [ 1:04 AM Comments () ]

[ Monday, July 04, 2005 ]

 

In the typical list form:
* I have to buy a guitar and get good at it.
* I am starting to smoke Drum aromatic tobacco. I still don't get the point of cigarettes though - they are just horrible.
* I should apply for Loans and Bursaries
* I should go to the UBC bookstore and ask around
* Work on the book
* Buy lotsa weed
* Go to the beach straight after work
* Buy a cowboy hat
* Look at Karl's AJAX code

The problem with not caring is that sometimes you are already in a situation where you care for something else and thus you get permanently hooked-in. Also while not caring you will be questioning the choice you made -- what if you did care actually? By caring in here I mean like complete detachment form the world. Like "I don't give a fuck", like "Frankly, my Dear, I don't give a damn."
I see it now. All the brothers are really fightning for themselves -- and surely not for our interests. Backing each other up and so forth.Especially in situations with hot girls-- heavily drunk by the whole team of brothers. Makes me sick. And tonight there was this guy with a bunch of 14 year olds. I was like -- "what the fuck?". I mean I like young chix and all and I joke about it but there is a limit! Well they looked fuckin' young in any case. I dislike most people here now. So in the sense of not caring this could actually work out. One day I will grow up and all this will seem funny.

Ivansky [ 10:04 AM Comments () ]

 

Do you actually realize what it means not to care -> An epyphenal moment perhaps <- it means that you have absolute freedom. Because you are in no way linked to the physical reality. I find that pretty cool and so I am going to try that for the coming days given my present emotional situation. Fuckin' Irish. How do you make yourself not care?

Another note. One of the easy ways we can investigate how the brain works is to use the visual cortex as the interface. You would be then in contact with the more compicated parts of the brain (as opposed to motor skills). If there is an easy way to look at the brain and observe the patterns. There is a lot of study that needs to go in there. Because we are coming to the point where we can simulate some pretty damn complicated systems (i.e. quantum chemistry).

Why do people fear learning some subjects? Is it because they think they can't do it? Or is it badly presented? Why doesn't everyone know about Calculus and Linear Algebra?

The sad part is that this idillic experience of the long weekend has to end tonight. No more beach, no more weed. For five days.

Ivansky [ 3:14 AM Comments () ]